Friday, September 24, 2004
Mummy, Mummy, look what I've done! I spent all week on this cute little halter, look at it! It's ruined!
How do you mean, deary, it looks fine?
No, Mummy, look how long it is! If I was more daring and a little more skanky, I ould wear this as a dress!
Monique, you are a silly girl. Give it here, and I will show you.
{Mummy takes the front of the Shapely Halter, which still has the straps on the needles, hanging it around Moniques neck by the cable of her Circ..Even though she is knitting it flat)
See, Monique. Look at your chest. See how there's these two lumpy bits that stick out? They are called "breasts". Even though yours are still.. petite, they take up alot of space and fabric. They make your Halter fit perfectly, don't they?
Why, yes, Mummy, I see that you are right...How silly of me to not hold it up against myself before threatening to rip it out?
No, I did not really ask my mother for help.
Today was odd. Me head feels like it's going to fall off. Serious. And coz my necks sore from me trying to nurse my head, my shoulders are in agony. And that makes my back hurt. I think I'm really sick. And Dad's here in a week..Well, ten days. But still. I want to be bright and happy and healthy for that small holiday! Cheery!
Hmm, what else is up? Yes. The Shapely Halter. Well. I have finished the front, pretty much. Well...Totally. It's great, the colour, especially! I love it! It's purply/mauve sometimes, and then it's plae blue at others. You can't tell what colour it really is most of the time. The light changes everything. So, it can be feminine and tom-boyish at the same time...Very good.
On a more disturbing front...One of my brothers friends (in year eight, I'm in year nine) who I thought I was pretty good friedns with, has...He's gone all...Tryhardy. It's horrible. "W" was someone who I had huge respect for as a person and as a friend, someone who I stuck up for against my own friends...I put myself at risk, both socially (not that I really care) and physically for him. And now it's all for nothing because he's become a pot-head druggie type guy who takes ten Panadol at a time because he likes the way it feels.
When people are drunk, stoned or simply off their faces, I have no time for them and just ignore them, I don't look at them or anything, I just walk on by.
Today, after school, he comes up to me and Shaun, while we were waiting for Mel, and goes "Oh no, Monique, it's the holidays! It's the last day, I'm not going to see you for two weeks? Oh no, I'm going to miss you.." and was just drawling out all this crap. I actually found myself not listening and just walking away.
This is the guy who..I don't know, he's not people smart, and he's not really school smart, but he's aware, and I respected hi for that. He was someone who I cared for. I just...It really disturbed me...That he comes to school and swallows ten Panadol, or goes and has a smoke at the station, to impress the un-impressable.
Sorry if you found that utterly boring, but it's something that I can't stop thinking about and that has bothered me very much. I can't do anything about it.
We're going to get some batteries for Brother M's camera, tomorrow, so should have pictures!!
Ashik0 @ 9/24/2004 10:23:00 pm