Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Wow. It feels like I'm lying down, with lots of gravity and stuff. And someone has their hand curled in a fist. And they've got it rammed into the middle of my chest, pushing as hard as they can. It hurts alot. Especially when I breathe. Argh. I don't like pain. AStham, mum reckons. I know my body, and I know my asthma, I've had fourteen years of it. This is not asthma. This is something else. It feels ... odd.
Alot happened today. Knit wise, not much. I've been knitting my Shapely Halter (odded version of the Shapely Tank). I've almost finished my decreases.
I got the short-row thing too, though it took me while, and some help was needed. But I got there. They seem a pretty valuable thing to know.
Now pictures again...Will be on holidays soon. Should be nice. You know there won't be access to the internet because we're staying in a hoilidy/caravan park by the beach. As id Dad is onyl staying for a week? I mean...Yes, (commence that narrator guys voice..Mental blank, cannot remember his name)" the Father has not seen the offspring in over three years, going on four, yet this time, he only visits them for a single week. Perhaps next time, his time with the offspring will not be so short."(End voice)
Now for the School/Social stuff:
In fabrics, am making a pair of chocolate brown boxer shorts. They are very cool. I've pretty well finished, just have to hem one more leg, and do somethign about the ends, then I'm done! I think they're pretty good for my first real sewing machine project. I'll see if I can use the school digi-cam to post some pics? I'll ask about it.
Mmk. I can be a smart ass, I'll admit. But I'll only be a smart asss, and behave with out respect, if I hold no respect for you. I'm very big on respect. It's just something that menas alot to me. And my teacher, Alan Revi (please do report him! Have him hung, or at least jailed). ALAN REVI. MR ALAN REVI. Again, my teacher, ALAN REVI, is someone whom neither I, nor the rest of the class, have any respect for. Neither as a person, or a a teacher. At all. He doesn't respect us as students, or even people, so how dare he expect us to treat him well? So, I was being a smart ass and muttering things under my breath, bitching about him really lud so he could hear, paying him out and stuff. There's a bunch of us who do stuff like that. We display our disrespect.
And then he just snapped. "Get out, MONIQUE! AAAAAAAAARGHHHHH! DIE CHILD, DIE!!!" style. So, I got out, witha big fat grin on my face. I knid of hung around outside the class room, because I couldn't pack my stuff and go home; I'd left most of my stuff in there. Otherwise I would have. Then, a few minutes later, he comes out and leans over me all menacing like, and tells me never to "treat me like that again" or he'll call my mum. Ugh great threat there, he already had a meeting with her when he failed me, and she has no respect for him either. He'sa sneaky, lying shit-head. He was telling em to stop being so rude. I was just looking past him with a big grin on y face, I couldn't believe it, I was honeslty trying not to laugh. And then A(that guy I like) and the rest of the class came out, because the bell had gone. Cheering me on. I was going to say something before everyone came out, but I felt like he would have seriously hit me, the way he was leaning over me. Ugh.
Teachers are supposed to be there to teach us and support us and make us feel good about school. I don't like going to school on Thursdays because I know that I have to spend 80 minutes first thing in a classroom with Revi. I was honestly considering skipping, for a while.
It's not good, when a student is driven to that, by a teacher. Because if I skipped one lesson because I just didn't want to go, what's stopping me skipping others?
"A" tells a mutual friend that he doesn't like me, but some other girl. It didn't hurt me at all. I think I have a real interest in him. I wanted to know him since year eight. But, as much as he says that, I still feel like he does like me. He acts as if he does. I dont get it.
Stuff is weird. Maybe I should scan my shapely halter. Just shove it in the scanner and go?
Ashik0 @ 9/22/2004 08:30:00 pm