Wednesday, November 17, 2004
Today is so hot. Everything is moving slow, and it's the type of heat thats makes your head just throb. And when you walk in th door, you don't need shit form your mother.
It's too hot to knit, even with the air-con on. I can only just type this, my fingers are red all ready. If only my bad circulation stopped working well right now. I'd be nice and cool.
Cool, Kool-Aid! I got four little packets in the mail yesterday. I'll post a pic when I've got all of them (long story as to why they're being sent slowly).
And just when I thought everything was going to be alright, and easy. Adam.....For ever I've liked him. Jess came up ot me today and goes"You and Adam are really good friedns, aren't you?"
"Uh, no, not really, why would you think that?"
"Oh, Max just said that you were..?"
"Uh, no we aren't really, I mean I like him, but you know?"
"Nah, I mean friends, you don't like like him???"
"Well, yeah, thats what I mean, I really like him. Like-like him. But don't think that I said anything or tried to break you guys up or anything, I didn't, I wouldn't do that!"
"Oh, yeah, nah, I didn't think that at all..."
I don't think she did. But it was sad. I felt kind of bad for her, she is really a nice person, and she still does feel for him. She wished me luck with him, which was nice, especially when she still likes him....
But then there's Axel. Oh, Axel. There's just so much about him that I love, and so much that I love to hate. HE's so fun. And just..I don't know, lately I've felt lke it's him trying to get my attention, not me trying to get his.
I don't know if I'm just imagining that. I kind of don't want to grow up. I don't want to have a husband, but I want a family. I don't want bills, but I want a job. I don't want a house, but I want somewhere nice. You know? I spose I have no choice, and if I did, I'd prolly just go with it, but still. I'm in no hurry. My worries are trivial, my life is fun, there's rarely anything really wrong in my life. I like it how it is. But I spose, as I grow...I'll like it more? At least, I hope I will. I don't know.
Ok. I had a good day, so I'm off to enjoy it even more, while its still light. This si the best part of the day, really, in Summer. Once you've cooled down, that is.
Max made me laugh ss hard I cried today. Thats' the best feeling in the world. I want to do it again, now....
Ashik0 @ 11/17/2004 06:38:00 pm